Sunday, March 8, 2009

I Hate Residency

I. Hate. Residency.

I. Hate. Residency.

And, just in case you didn't get the idea...

I. Hate. Residency.

I thank god that I did not choose surgery because that would be 5yrs of residency, not 3.

I ask myself sometimes why on earth I chose to do a 3rd year of residency when I could still be doing emergency medicine somewhere without obtaining more specialised training. Yes, maybe I wouldn't be as good at what I do but I'd be paid a shitload more than I am right now and I wouldn't have people watching over my shoulder at every turn and I wouldn't have any more rotations in things I have little interest in just so that perhaps, just perhaps, I will learn something relevant to what I'm going to be doing.

Starting cardiology tomorrow, I am not feeling optimistic. I hate being on call any more. I hate being off-service instead of in the ER. I hate working 32hr shifts. I hate being paid $70 to work said shifts. I'd make more working at fucking McDonald's. I hate hate hate hate having to play the stupid fucking residency game of changing my practice of medicine to suit whoever whenever whatever wherever whyever.

I love emergency medicine I just hate having to play the fucking residency game for another fucking year. Well, more like four more months. And I hate having to fucking study for another stupid exam in September. I am sick of writing fucking exams. I will so fucking burn the thousands of dollars' worth of textbooks when I receive my exam results, assuming I pass. I am just so done with my fucking edumacation.

AAAAAARGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

5 comments:

  1. I Hate Residency too! I am SO DONE with the fucking game. After graduation and the Boards, I will NEVER EVER deal with bullshit Internal Medicine ever again! And all those mofo's who antagonized me for these 3 long years can SUUUUCK IT!! I wonder if patients ever realize all that we go through to take care of them, and how half of us are probably just as screwed up as them. You are not alone, my friend. Goodluck as you too approach the end of this ridiculous race to finish residency.

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  2. ditto, but on year 2 of 6 of surgery

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  3. I was thinking of winning the lottery and becoming a garbage man. I fucking hate residency. Year 2/3 for me.

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  4. I hate residency and I am year 3/4 in ophthalmology. Still seriously thinking of quitting. I love the subject and the patients, but cannot stand the work environment and the attendings (most of them). I'm better off being poor and happy. Just quit - it's not worth getting depressed over a job that will never bring you happiness

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  5. So awesome to know I'm not alone! Finishing my intern year as a prelim neuro, 3 more to go, and I wake up every day and spend the first 15 minutes thinking "I HATE my fucking life"!!!

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